I guess I’ll start off by saying I miss you so much; these days, I’ve been thinking about you, I thought about you when I open my eyes in the morning when I hang out with my friends, or when I was driving home, I wonder what you’re up to, how you’re doing, and if you’re doing everything that you want.
probably.. this is my last letter to you, actually, I don’t wanna write this, I wanna write every my love letter to someone who is special to me and yeah… it’s you. but I know you don’t want me to stay and keep all of this right?
I’m sorry if I fell for you and landed hard. I just can’t undo what I’ve done. in fact, my feelings for you are getting deeper and growing, I gave my all for you, you were someone I truly loved, and at this point, it scared me too.
We don’t know each other, we don’t even text or contact, but I just took a chance so now I’m brokenhearted. but I already said this to myself “ if you love someone and you feel sincere with that feeling don’t pressure yourself or expect that he should love you either “, so I didn’t fall in love because I was lonely or needed someone to hold, I fell in love with you because when the first time talks to you, it was the only time that I wanted to make you a permanent in my world, you were like something I’ve never had before and I’ll be forever thankful that I found you because it’s like you brought me to a new canvas and I want to paint it with a beautiful picture of you, but you didn’t give me the color and permission for me to paint it.
you know I tried my best to catch you, and fought my feelings toward you, but you’re a cold-hearted man 🙁 and I realized no matter how hard I tried, and how much love I had, I will never be enough for you, I’m very sorry that I can’t give you the love story you always wished for, I just wish I could do more for you.
when I said I hope there is someone that makes you say “I found my new hope in you… I found a place to come back, to rely on, to share everything I wanted to share”. I really whisper it was me💔
I try so much to stop caring but the more I try the more I fail. the more I try to hate you, the more I keep on thinking, “you were good to me.”
and right now I’m at my lowest, rn I feel like I’m led down a rabbit hole that starts to fill up with water and I feel like I’m drowning.
I don’t know where to go from here. my heart is saying this feels so right, but my head is saying be smart, don’t be fooled. can you please say something?:(
but I always lost at the end, I never want to forget you. I’m scared of forgetting you.
I love you in every perfect imperfection.
I hope you know that I am still here for you and that I still think about you and that I still have all the love and respect for you.
but that “still” is getting weaker, you know where to find me if you want to reconnect but I also want to let you know that I will not be the one reaching out.
this is maybe the last concrete thought of you because I will close the chapter on you… one day.
Eventually, the light you lit in my heart will burn out, taking the hurt I feel with it.
won’t be muddle-headed in front of you ever again.
but always remember I loved you dearly.
please know that when I let you go it will not be for lack of love, but for the overwhelming abundance of it.
take care of yourself okay?
FROM…. You know who it is