Up until now I am still wondering how could you betrayed me so badly. For almost three years of being together, I have poured my heart to you. You were not just my boyfriend. You were my best friend, my confidante, and I loved you so much. I thought you were happy and contented with me. You made believe that your love was true. You fooled me completely.
I could only wish that the pain I am going through is only a fraction of what you are feeling…but I know that’s not the case. I know that while I cry myself to sleep, you are out there living your best life, making love to your woman…not a thought about me. Are you happy that you get to play around without any consequence? Is it fun to go on with your life as if nothing happened? I hope I could do that! Oh what I would give just to forget EVERYTHING about you. EVERY. SINGLE. FUCKING. THING.
The truth hurts. All along, it’s just my delusion. Our road trips, dates, eat outs, lahat lang pala un gimmick lang. Hindi pala special ung mga pag-oopen up mo sakin. Mga halos araw-araw nating “deep and endless conversations”. Hindi totoo ung mga yakap mo, halik, at kahit simpleng paghawak mo sa mga kamay ko. Hindi pala special un sayo kase apparently, all that you’re sharing with me naka-auto share din sa iba.
I know you are well aware how deep you hurt me and I also know despite that don’t care. Anyway, aa many people say, “Pain is finite”. As of now it hurts like hell but it is temporary. I pray that someday that I would heal and would be able to forgive you. Time will come when I will live my best life and forget that once upon a time, a narcissist like you killed my love.