Camila I know we’ve been friends for a good amount of time and I truly do love and appreciate you sm but sometimes I doubt you care about me that same way and although I’ve told you repeatedly that some of the people you met treat me differently than when your around and I said I needed a break you chose the side opposite to mine and I felt my heart break in a milllion ways. Whenever I tell you something I feel like your quick to brush it off and you consider me just a regular friend and nothing more.
I feel like I’m never good enough for you and I’ve had nights where I wished if I had more then maybe you would treat me the same as before when it was just the two of us. I’ve always been her at your side to support you but I hate the feeling that it seems like I’m making you feel ashamed.
I haven’t been able to sleep and today was a terrible day bc you weren’t here if only you knew I walked in circles around the school with a heavy heart and a lump in my throat your other friends don’t consider me a friend or maybe even human. I don’t want to tell you because I’m afraid that if I do you won’t care. Today I wanted to disappear from the world.
Did you know that? Our worlds are so different and i’m at a disadvantage I wish I could enjoy hanging out with you, talking without stopping and having fun but growing up I grew up mostly alone with little family on both sides I never got to grow. I know this might sound selfish but I wish it would just be the 2 of us again but I don’t want to hold you back.
I love you and I know you hate hugs but sometimes I wish I could hug you. I’ve been here the longest but I feel like a second option.