If I’m being honest, I don’t get butterflies when im with you, my heart doesn’t pound, and it doesn’t seem like a roller coaster ride at all, and that’s not a bad thing because I feel safe and calm when you’re around me, you always make it magical. 

My feelings grew stronger over time, and it wasn’t forced, but it did make me realize that I was more certain of what I was feeling and it was more clear to me. Sometimes when I look at you, and you’re looking back at me, I can see something. 

This teeny tiny hint of something more, something what I’m feeling but I can’t say. I think its a good thing because I like you without reasons. I just like you, you, the whole you. Just you. There are times when I want nothing more than to look into your eyes, because It’s when we’re looking at each other in silence, we end up saying the most. Your eyes are gorgeous. 

I know you didn’t mean anything when our eyes met, that’s why just like the moon, admiring you from afar is enough. I know we’re becoming closer than we were before. I just feel tempted to get this off my chest. I have feelings for you, and I’m a little apprehensive about telling you. And by this, I don’t expect you to reciprocate these feelings, nor do I expect you to be anything other than who you have been to me. 

Right now, I don’t want to be anything more than besties. But I just needed to get this off my chest though. I’m at a loss for words to convey or comprehend the conflicting emotions that have been raging through my heart all night.I only know that first and foremost in all my thoughts has been the glorious confirmation you gave me that day. I spent weeks, months dreading over telling you because i don’t want things to get weird between us but you may and never will know it. 

I guess I hide my feelings pretty well huh. I realized that there are times when I need to be silent and allow the written, unspoken words to communicate what I felt for you. I like you, I really really fucking like you. It’s so hard kaya to force myself to lose feelings simo ’cause I know wala mani pakadtuan, kay we’re friends. 

Sometimes when we talk, there are so many beautiful and intense feelings that flow in and out of my soul for you, yet the words as I say them never seem to allow those feelings to touch you. When I am with you, something magical happens to me, even just your presence, it makes me happy. I just have a reason to keep looking at you. Without effort, unconsciously, as of course, of all I have ever thought, I know that I really like youuu. 

I like you a lot, and I thought at first, i just like being your friend and around you but it’s more than that. I can’t always explain my feelings the way I want you to understand them. ive never done anything like this before, idk how this works, idk how else to confess, it has been so long to have this through in my heart. It’s been 7 months. I’m probably going sound crazy, but I do care. 

I follow my heart even when my brain tells me it’s wrong. But sometimes I’ve come to think that if I have this guts to tell you, I might lose you ’cause we’re friends. If love feels so good then I am so in love with everything that you do. 

Maybe just like before, I will still admire you from the way that you didn’t know.

FROM…. val