God. growing up I always thought having a crush on someone was easy. fuck that. you’ve made this the hardest thing in the world. i love you sososooso much. not a day goes by where I don’t think of you. you are easily the prettiest, funniest, kindest and smartest girl that i know. I love you so fucking much and i wish I had the guts to tell you. 

Jesus i still cant believe I fell in love with my best friend, but here we are. if i ever do tell you, i’m sorry if everything is ruined. i’m sorry that this friendship we’ve had since the beginning of high school is over. maybe its not. maybe you felt the same way. i mean i doubt it but. who knows.
I love you ok? i hate what you do to your body and i hate how much you hate yourself. i know you’ve been this way since forever, but please don’t be so hard on yourself. I know you don’t think this, but i think you are perfect in every possible way.
You are my favorite person in the world. my face lights up when i get a notification from you. i love you so incredibly much and i just wish i new how to tell you without everything being ruined.

FROM…. your best friend from theater