It has been a while since we’ve talked online. Been a while since I’ve seen and talked to you in person. I am not going to lie, I miss you truly. 

There is not a single moment that I don’t think about you, or about us. I miss our relationship, even if that is all I can do. It pains me to let go and start alone. 

It pains me to forgive and forget about everything we went through, and the start. If I had a time machine, I’d tell myself to wait. But, things happen for a reason, and if the reason was to learn and love you more as a friend, so be it. 

I do not want to deal with these feelings with hatred, and I do not harbour any bitter feelings towards you. I do not intend to. If you have found someone else to like or love, I would have to feel the pain all over again, even if I personally should not. 

I am not able to help it, but I will go through it. If you are alone (hopefully you are) and happy, I am willing to accept that as well. I can not unlove you, I can only try to transform it to platonic love.

FROM…. me