When we met, I was in such a low point in my life. You buoyed me with your gentleness and compassion. I know we were never going to be, but I wanted your gentle ways regardless. Now that we must part, something inside my soul has broken. Our time in the evening and morning are now broken and I have to have someone watching over me during this time.
But you already know this so I shan’t continue the moaning and complaining about missing you and what will never be. This is a letter to give you more information about me and something to remember me by if you so choose. Because of our situations, I could never be the proper love you deserve…and you deserve a proper love.
Now that I sit down to write this out, I’m at a loss for words. Honestly, these past few days seem to have brought me closer to you rather than farther apart. Don’t be in a rush to marry. Make sure he’s the right one. Always work at it, marriage is not easy and probably not meant to be. You won’t change your partner, but you can change yourself if needed, but even that is hard.
Most importantly, communicate. I know it’s hard and maybe you don’t have the right words, but you do have the right thoughts and instincts. Go with that. Try to be honest and show your beloved who you truly are. Don’t be afraid. I’m having a good hard look at myself right now and letting people know more of who I am is scary, but what can you do? You are who you are and that’s part of the beauty of life. Make your impact.
Thank you for the time you spent with me. It wasn’t much, maybe an hour or two a day, but your comfort and love were indispensable for my soul. Now that we’re parting, there is a hole in my heart that will heal in time. Without you, I would not have been able to learn how much I was suppressing desires, feelings, and thoughts that I need for my own fulfillment.
You have a beautiful heart and soul. I don’t know why finding love has been hard for you, but remember our conversations and maybe you can build and have learned from that. I’m not really a talker and am rather shy most of the time. You helped me overcome some of that. I never would have been able to grow the way I have without you.
I thought I would write this to tell you more about me, but I don’t think you need that. There will be more hurt and pain in your life. Learn from it. Embrace love wherever you can find it. Some things are not important, figure out what is important to you. You will make someone truly happy as you did me.
I love you so. (I should have said those word to you on our phone call…don’t miss an opportunity. If you need to say something to a person, sometimes you only get the one chance and then it’s gone.)