In the past, I have no idea what liking someone means. I thought it is just mere attraction to the person’s looks or personality. Now, I realize liking someone isn’t something so fleeting, shallow, or momentary. It is not only limited to thinking constantly about the person but also exploring everything about him and trying hard to get into his world.

Liking someone is also about breaking down every rule that was set or getting out of your comfort zone to try to be with him. And I’m doing exactly that right now with this letter.

I tried several times to speak with you about this. I was cautious at first because I didn’t want to make another fool of myself. But I suppose I’m digging my own grave by falling so deeply for you that I can’t cry even when it hurts inside. It’s too difficult. Too difficult. There’s a slim possibility you’ll feel this way as well, but I tried. I don’t want to waste my entire life making assumptions and concocting unrealistic scenarios.

I like you. From the beginning. Since I’ve heard your voice I knew I like you. It’s too overwhelming finding myself next to you every Thursday and Sunday. I want to speak a lot but I can’t talk, I want to know more about you but I do not have enough courage. Consumed by cowardice, I said to myself I will not beg for love. I will never be one of those pathetic girls asking a guy to love them back. I will never be one of those who are insecure about themselves.

I swear I distance myself away from you, to protect myself, to prevent myself from being one of those women I’ve mentioned. I thought I will be happier if I avoided you. I thought I can face my days happily without seeing you. But surprisingly, I am more human when I admitted to myself I can’t let go of this feeling.

I used to never understand why people took pictures of everything, but now I want to do it too. This is the food I’m eating right now. I wonder what you’re eating. The things I’m doing. The things I’m seeing. The clothes I’m wearing. Why do I want to share them with you? I know you wouldn’t be interested. So, because of you, I now know what it means to really like someone. It may have caused some upheaval and nervousness but it has also broken a kind of monotony to give my life more color and excitement. And for that, I need to thank you for appearing in my life no matter what the outcome may be.

Am I being silly? I hope not. Even some friends think I may be at the losing end with this confession. But to me, there are no winners or losers in love. It doesn’t matter who takes the first step forward as long as it is done with sincerity.

Despite all of that, I am happy I can finally say all of these words. My heart’s congratulating me for being honest and brave.

Sana mapansin mo na gusto talaga kita :>

FROM…. meow