I am heartbroken writing this letter to you. We are over. After 8 beautiful years together. You are my best friend and the love of my life. I can’t imagine life without you, but you wanted to end things between us. I’ll never get to find comfort in your arms again, never be able to belly laugh with the person who knows how to make me laugh the hardest, and never be able to kiss your lips again.
I wish so badly things could’ve been different. We were so close to being perfect for each other, however, we were not each other’s perfect match 100%. We worked hard at this relationship, never giving up for 8 years despite wondering if that was the correct decision a handful of times.
It is probably the correct decision, however, I don’t want it to be. I don’t want to end things. I want to be with you. We promised ourselves to each other for the rest of our lives. I didn’t make that decision lightly, but maybe you did. You act as if I’m a monster, that I treated you poorly, but yet you never told me when I upset you.
This is somehow my fault. I don’t care who is to blame, all I want is another chance. You’ll never allow that though, and I know that. I love you with every fiber of my being and I always will. You were my perfect partner besides the addiction. Now all I have is to wish you the best. I hope you stay sober this time. You won’t survive much longer if you keep going the way you did. I don’t want that for you, I want you to be happy and healthy and flourishing, you deserve that. I fear you won’t do well on your own, but you’re no longer my concern to worry about any longer.
That’s the one nice thing, I won’t have to worry. I will still worry of course, but I think that will fade in time. Just like the memory of you. But I hope it doesn’t fade. It would be easier if all memory of you faded away, but I want to remember what this great love was like for the remainder of my life. Even if it’s harder this way, I want to remember it all. I’ll never forget you. Please be well. Stay safe.
Forever and always,
From.. Your girl