You’ll never read this and I’ll never tell you but I miss you and God was I in love with you. If I’m being honest, I still am. I feel horrible for pulling away the last time we spoke last year. I got scared because you said you didn’t want to like me again. And it hurts so bad because I was still in love with you so I ran.I’m so sorry that went how it did. If could change everything and still be with you. I would. I still think about you constantly on days that I shouldn’t.
I wanna run to you and tell you how my day was.. I wanna show you music that I found. I wanna show you cool scores that I got in games. But now I can’t. I wish it was me by your side, God I wish it was me.. I wish you wished it was me. I don’t think I’ll ever forget your pretty eyes or the way you smiled at me. Or the way you’d call me at 12 in the morning and speak to me before bed.
Even the way that I would wake up to talk to you. I wish I would’ve stayed. I wish you still wanted me. I won’t try and message you anymore but if you ever come back, I’ll be waiting. I love you. Forever hoping you’ll come back and call me samrara again. I hope one day we’ll speak again tik.
