I still don’t know why you left me. I still don’t know whether or not I hurt you. What did I do that you just changed your entire attitude towards me overnight?
These past few days have been like a rollercoaster, I keep telling myself, I shouldn’t be sad over someone who left me as if I didn’t matter, as if all the things we did together didn’t matter. I am not sad because you left me, I’m sad because I got no closure.
Sure, friendships can break apart at any given time, but there has to be a reason, right? I am abroad right now, so I don’t really know what’s going on, but according to mutual friends, you have totally changed. Some say it’s for the better but most of them say that you are worse now.
What’s going on with you? Why have you changed so much since you got that boyfriend? Why do you only hang out with the person that you “hated” all these years? You don’t text me anymore, and if I do text you, your replies are always late, and dry.
I don’t miss you, I miss us, I miss the memories we made, I miss the old you. I hope you changed for the better. I am sorry if I was a bad influence on you. I loved you a lot and I hope you felt the same way, even if it was for a short while. I hate you now. I hope you suffer. And I hope I move on. You are not worth it at all. The love and trust I have built up these years have disappeared.
I resent you now, I would erase every memory of you that I ever had if I could. However, I will just have to live with these memories, and I will cherish those memories, despite your behavior. I loved you before but now it’s time for me to love myself. See you in Hell. From, Your one and only soulmate, Panda.