I honestly just wanted to write somewhere so I went and searched up a random site. Here I am, confessing all my feelings on a random site..
Remember that day, before you told me what you did, you asked: what would you tell your friends if they asked us what we are. That day, I would’ve responded with, if anyone asked me, I would say you’re the guy I wanted love and marry. But when I look back I’m scared, because I feel like I got way to attached to something that maybe was one sided..
You asked me, a long time ago, are we really inlove or are we just lonely teenagers. Back then, I wouldn’t have known..
But I think it was me, I was the one who was inlove and you, you were the lonely teenager
Right now, I’m not sure what you feel, I just wish that you would’ve been willing to wait. But you weren’t and the fact that you went out with that girl proved that to me. It didn’t matter how hard I tried, I would’ve never been good enough because I wasn’t in real life.
That time you told me you loved me and wanted to marry me, the time you said that you want labels to keep me from dating someone else, what was that ? Was it just lovebombing. You know there’s a part of me that revokes it so much, because I truly believed you loved me like l loved you.
You made a playlist with her didn’t you? Idk I’m stalking your Spotify. Honestly I just don’t understand.
How does someone’s opinion change that quickly? I mean one week before this you were jealous of book characters, all of it happened so drastic. All of me wants to hate you, but I can’t. I think a part of me will always love you.
Well I guess this is a goodbye again, I’m happy I got to spill everything on here. I don’t think you will ever see this, even though I secretly hope you will. I was ready for when we were older, for you to be my first time. So yeah maybe I did get too attached. It hurts so bad that I have to let you go…
Goodbye Sufyan…
